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You walk around thinking That noone likes you How can this be? This can't be true. Your beautiful eyes Your soft face Your countless features You're no disgrace. Instead of ignoring You feel everyone is staring When will she see It does not matter what she is wearing. You have so much damn potential You're brain is so smart You care about everyone You have a throbbing heart For looks it doesn't matter It's just how you live So forget all of this madness And see what you can give.

I'm lost Growing colder every step Why am I here I have no cause The more I think Slipping deeper into depression How everyone is happy I just feel compression Walking through the hallways Everyone laughing Getting the occasional glance Why is this happening I'm dead Everything goes so slow From my toes to my head I wish you could just know No sleep once again My eyes are blood-shot No sound enters inside Except my beating heart I lay in bed Stairing at the ceiling When will I be finally saved I hate this feeling.

I love your eyes Don't hide them away They are so beautiful Just leave them okay? Keep them from drying Keep them from dieing Keep them from striving But most of all keep them from crying. They enlighten your life They show dark and light Keep them out of harm Let them sleep tonight. Why does such a nice girl Have to go though such pain That day you're mother hit you You will not die in vein. Stand strong on the inside Don't bother to cry All the shit that comes It's just life passing you by. Just try to forget All of that stress Life is too short To live all depressed So open your bright eyes Just see what you can do

I don't feel welcome At my house anymore Things are turning wrong I should walk out this door Countless nights I recieve no love What have I done so wrong? I cleaned the basement... This feeling is so damn strong The apathy it kills Why won't someone talk with me Igknowledge me, look at my face I count the hours, now up to three Would it even matter if i just left Without saying a word Walking out the door Im now feeling assured. To trudge out into the world With nothing but tears To leave everyone behind This is my greatest fear. I remember all of the goodness All those nights happilly spent If I left out this door righ

It's happening yet again The anxiety deep inside Please get it over with already I feel like suicide The hiarchy of people It burns my ears The grouping, the naming It is all of my fears I get staired down Down every endless path Whispered names, evil staires When will they stop their wrath? What is so different about me Is it my hair? My eyes? Or my cold-hearted glare? Is it my personality? I never hesitate a word For it would be useless I am now truly assured Anything I say Anything I ask It's simply put to rest After being shot down and passed. I can feel pain Just like you I am an individual I wish you just knew

My heart grows faint My eyes grow dry My emotions swell inside There is nothing left to cry Life flows so cold Through my torn veins The effect never stops It is the always endless rain. My heart has been patched Simply mended with obvious lies All those damned situations That lead to my screaming cries My hands don't feel The warmth of the sun The only thing I feel Is the blunt end of a gun. Pure confusion ever plaiging Contorted thoughts, flowing so fast I will never forget The long drawn out past. The wind it burns My weakend swollen eyes No sweet tears left to cry Only weak spoken sighs When will this leave This f

Your numerous body features Your luminous eyes Your hidden security Your own inner cries. Countless nights Spent thinking of what to wear Should I wear this or that This is your only care. So many worries Of what to say To that new group of people Who have now come your way You wish to fit in With people so vile People who only care about themselves You'd rather run a mile You think all of your troubles Will dissapear out of site Hanging out with these monsters From day to night. You're beaufitul Don't hide what is yours Those shiney magnificent blue eyes Now covered by sores. All those sleepless nights Caused by worr

Looking up at the night sky Seeing bright luminous lights Shooting stars, streaming comets Oh, what a site. The beautifulness of destruction Dieing stars slowly disapearing Sending waves of color The moon constantly peering. The planets spin around Constantly day and night Many light years away Everything just seems right We are so tiny Yet everything just works Things are just perfect For life to lurk. To breath the air To love one another To sleep and dream To explore and discover Our universe is vast Growing larger every instant It is simply amazing It's far from consistant Brilliant things happing everywhere Stars

I wake yet again The hours strikes eight No sleep once again This day has its evil fate No time for breakfast No time for rest I'm late for school Damnit I forgot about the test. Walking slowly through the halls Getting up to my class Dreading the entry once again Waiting for time to pass The stares, the whispers The unspoken thoughts The silence now broken They hate me a lot I take a seat I sit not saying a word The anxieties tearing me This is truly absurd. Another test gone wrong When will this end This day of grief It's too long untill the weekend I sit in solitude When people are eating Just another 2 hours I h